Half Moon and Stars.

Half moon tonight, bright yellow half moon. Stars scattered all over the sky.

Weird.

I've never seen this from MU's balcony before. This is the first time.

Maybe even the stars and the moon are saying goodbye to me.

The view is nice though.

=)

Yesterday afternoon dad booked the flight ticket already.

7th of July, 1340 flight from LCCT to Melbourne.

When i see him clicking on the confirm booking button, my feelings mixed. Rojak-ed like that.

I also don't know why.

I feel happy and excited that i'm actually going to Australia to study already but at the same time, I feel sad, very very sad, for I have to leave all my family and friends and go on my own. Starting a new journey, a new chapter in my life. It's so damn freaking difficult for me to let go of everyone here, no offence but especially my friends in KL. I've already been struggling with my own thoughts for weeks and I still find it very difficult although I have tried to be more positive and convinced myself that I will definitely see them again.

Seeing them again wasn't actually a problem. It's just that I don't know what would happen in these duration when i'm not here. Things change and people change. I'm enjoying and appreciating the warmth feeling and the great times i'm having with them right now.

But..

How will the feeling be when I see them again next year? Will it still be the same?

Will everyone still be here as a group?

Will conflict them apart?

Or most of them had already left?

Or everyone isn't here anymore?

and most importantly,

Will we still talk crap and laugh with each other like there's no tomorrow?

I really hope we will but we wouldn't know what will happen in the near future. I'm depending on you guys to maintain this special friendship-turn-family relationship as the way it is when I leave so I will get to feel our love again when i'm back.

I have already accepted the fact that everyone's got to move on with their own life no matter what but it just sucks being one of the first to leave. It really really sucks.

This year's TT night on the 5th of July 2009 will be the last time i'm performing with you guys on stage,

the same stage where we stood on it together when we first met,

the same stage where we had our most glorious time together,

and it is going to be the stage where we stand on it when we part this July,

College Hall's stage.

When I go to Aussie, I doubt I will be dancing anymore. It might be my last dancing performance. So, I hope that each and everyone of us will have our best time on stage together for one last time before I leave. This goes to the person in charge, please choreograph one cantik cantik routine, ong ong one, and make us shine on stage. I would appreciate that ALOT. PLEASE...

After the performance, it is my last night with you guys because on the 6th I will accompany my family members and i will be flying on the 7th already. 

I really hope that that night is going to last forever so we will have all the time in the world to enjoy one last time together.

Hopefully everything works out the way i wished for. I don't want to leave here with regrets. I want to leave here with happiness carrying me forward.

Once again, I LOVE YOU GUYS!

=' )

PS: Anyone wana sleep together in MU's hall after TT nite 09?

Currently Friends Forever (Graduation) By Vitamin C see related

Current Feeling.

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Graduation (Friends Forever) - Vitamin C

This song sings my feelings out right now at this moment.

=(

I'm only left with around 70 days here. I want to make the best out of it. I don't want to have any regrets.

It's VERY difficult for me to let go of you guys here and i'm struggling. You guys are my life. <3

SOB.

I dedicate this song to each and every TT people around me. I love you guys.

Damien